Trails

Sometimes you experience times of darkness in your life. During these times you can feel hopeless, alone, and rejected. But no matter how your situation may seem God is always there. He may even be using this time of trail as a mode of growth for you spiritually or physically. In the end the clouds will move on and you will emerge a new person.

One such experience for me was being a child of a single parent for close to 10 years. My mother was forced to raise me by herself. Constantly aware that the funds we use to live on were small. I had to deal with not having a father and feeling lonely at times because I didn't have any siblings. It was a hard and trying times to have to live through.

Having lived through this trail I have a greater sense of appreciation for my father. I also am greatful for all the nice things that I have. My sense of trust is a bit stronger because I constantly was having to trust God to help me through each day. This has made it easier for me to find people worthy of trust and mercy for their past mistakes. I truly believe that had it not been for this trial I would be a completely different person.

Another experience that I have witnessed is how when I was at Indian Land people weren't always the nicest to me. People at Indian Land would make fun of me for being really skinny or for wearing glasses. At first this really hurt me, but as time passed I realized that none of the things they would say really meant anything. At the beginning I felt like I was an outcast who was to weird to be around. But as time passed I realized that the "weirdness" was just in my head and that I just needed to get past it.

One of the good things that came out of this experience was I found that my mom would help me no matter what. I also found that I wasn't really weird people there just weren't ready for someone as unique as me. I now have a greater sense of self worth and it is a lot harder for people to tear me down. People from Indian Land who see me now are always like "wow, your really different". This experience has given me a greater sense of empathy with others and I can sense when other are upset easier.

The Bible talks about people going through trials and feeling bad. It goes on to talk about the great changes that happen during this time. Even if you are going through a time of hardship God is there no matter how bleak the situation may seem. God can use times of bleakness to shape you or to humble you in your journey of life. It may seem at the time that the whole world is against you but in reality God will always be there for you to lean and depend on.